jonas / allstarz

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fishes out my dissertation about how these two are so funny in juxtaposition

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Well... I guess not.

[ There's a small chuckle, but he winces. Oooh. His bones. His fuckin lung puncture.

Anyway, ]

You three are so tight-knit. Maybe I would feel jealous... if I wanted that sort of thing.

[sixam]

[ his expression flickers to something more concerned when he sees the wince, and he's up to explore and see if he can find painkillers or anything. like that'll help. ]

If it's any consolation, it... took us a little while to get there. [ but he won't deny it. the three of them are basically codependent and inseparable now. eight weeks of the reaper's game and learning to be a team does that to a person. but. ]

Not big on connections?

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[ Painkillers would help a lot, actually. Seo sighs. ]

I know, I should have taken them earlier, but I can't move much.

[ It doesn't sound like he's talking to Jonas when he says that, but he actually starts to now. ]

... No, not really. I mostly had business connections.

[sixam]

[ digdig... he does come up with a bottle of aspirin and sort of shakes it to see how much is in there.

also he just stares at him and he's kinda like "oh this is familiar." sometimes a friend comes back from a cyoa in a different game you currently believe you're from, and they were busy talking to a voice in their head.

okay. he will just... ask in a moment. shaking some aspirin out and he's turning to reach into a bag he was carrying to pull out a bottle of water. here. for u. ]

I've heard those are good to have if you really want to get somewhere with your work. But... not good for much else. Was that by choice?

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Oh, I didn't do work for the sake of earning a livelihood. It was for my personal goals.

[ Sorry he sounds shady again, but he's just a wounded guy on the bed. It's fine? Don't worry about it. ]

[sixam]

... like the mafia? [ DON'T JUST ASK IT LIKE THAT. ]

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... Okay, just because I'm Italian...

[sixam]

What? Oh, no! No, that's not what I meant—wait really?

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Yes... but no, I used to work as an advisor and now I'm a leader of a small group that does reporting on supernatural stories.

[ :3c ]

[sixam]

[ :o ]

... supernatural like... ghosts? So you guys go out and find that kind of stuff?

[ he will get back to what just happened here in a second, he is suddenly curious. ]

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One of the team members is a writer and the other is an editor. The others do field work. It's a pretty interesting experience.

Though, I wouldn't really say it's anything like those ghost hunting videos online.

[sixam]

I would doubt it. Those shows aren't real. [ he just seems sure of this. ] Ghosts usually find you more than you find them anyway.

[ ... going back a bit. ]

So what were your actual goals with this?

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[ Seodore doesn't think so either, but for probably different reasons. ]

Well, what do you think?

[ He seems slightly amused. Did he make the group because he wanted excitement in his life? Did he want to find a ghost? Prove that the supernatural exists for some reason?

But he mostly wants to know what Jonas thinks of this. If this is another mafia answer, he's going to sleep. ]

[sixam]

[ IT'S NOT THE MAFIA. but he does seem to mull over an answer. ]

I think that usually when people purposefully start on a path like that, it's because they have someone or something specific they're trying to connect with again. People who hunt goes for the sake of hunting ghosts never seem that intentional about it.

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You think so?

[ This is where he would tilt his head if it didn't really hurt to do it... ]

It's not about connecting, but you're close. I'm just looking for something. The others have different goals, but that's mine.

[sixam]

[ well i'm sure it'll hurt even worse when he DIES, HAKI. ]

Can I ask what it was you were looking for?

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[ Maybe he died painlessly you don't know ]

You can, but I won't give you a real answer.

[ So. No. ]

Nothing personal. It's just something I won't tell anyone. The only way anyone will know is if it's pried out of me by external forces.

[sixam]

[ he doesn't seem too bothered by the refusal. likely because he would've been more surprised if seodore actually was honest about it. ]

Fair enough. Everybody has their own secrets and agendas, even if they'll tell you otherwise. I'd hate to see what those external forces are though. [ ... ] We found our ghosts on accident. I'm not even sure they count as ghosts now, but... easier to call them that. Guess that's why I was wondering.

[ looping back though... ]

Connections or not, do you always deflect when someone asks how you are or how they might be able to help you?

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So did you have to deal with ghosts wherever you came from?

[ It should ping Seodore, but it doesn't seem extremely relevant to his interests... despite being the leader... of a supernatural findings group.

Anyway. ]

If I want help, I'll ask for it. Why?

[sixam]

Sort of. [ which is about all he says, because he's not offering more than necessary either. ]

Is it so wrong to check and see? Some people are very stubborn about this sort of thing.

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It's incredibly burdensome.

[ He sighs. Oog. His fuckin lungs. ]

But that's me, making big fusses about the small things like photos and videos too.

[sixam]

[ sir, your lungs... ]

Big fusses as in you don't like being in them?

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I have half a mind to burn them on the spot.

[sixam]

And why is that?

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I said my reason, didn't I?

[ A small smile. ]

Just the act of taking a picture is socially accepted as normal, so refusing it or making a big deal about it gets disapproval because I'm refusing something that is easily accepted by others. Because of that, my preferences are easily brushed off and sometimes made to fit the mold, such as editing me inside the photo.

People, things, and values don't need to be understood to be respected.