jonas / allstarz

[refractures]

fishes out my dissertation about how these two are so funny in juxtaposition

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[sixam]

Hey, when we get out of here, what's stopping you from doing that? It kinda sounds deserved.

[ but hum... ]

Sounds like you got lucky finding a person that's made just for you then. [ vaguely wondering how this fits with the seodore he knows. and he figures he will not fully figure it out either. ]

[refractures]

Well, they were just a bunch of randos, you know? Not really worth my time in full.

[ She pauses though as if thinking about something... but then she smiles again like before. ]

Just for me! Wouldn't that be grand? Like I deserve to have someone like that in preparation for everything that would happen. Give them something nice and then take it away...

[sixam]

[ hm... ]

"Everything that would happen"?

[refractures]

Oh, you know.

[ She takes out a cigarette and lights it. Her expression unreadable, yet obvious at the same time. ]

Life.

[sixam]

[ his own expression skews to something thoughtful. ]

Life. It does have a way of happening, whether you're prepared or not. Might as well try to hold onto people you want when it does.

[refractures]

Well... I was prepared for their death, but everything after...

[ She stays quiet after her voice trails off. ]

It's fine. They died a natural death.

[sixam]

It's... always something I think people don't think too much about. Yes, it's sad to lose the people we love to death, and people grieve and mourn for them or whatever. But what about the people left behind? When you think about it, that version of that person died, too. Even if you knew someone's death was a long time coming, like old age... or if they're sick. You can really only be so prepared.

[refractures]

You know what? You're right. I cried like a baby! Nonstop tears for several days straight! I was soooo dehydrated. My skin...

[ Anyway, her mood takes a slightly somber turn. ]

... I wanted to go with them, but god won't let me log out, so to say.

[ spiteful

But then she looks over at Jonas. ]

But see, I'm reasonable. The version you know? I'm sure he fumes whenever he hears about anything god-related. Poor you, having to deal with that nonsense.

[ Seodore (original) does his best, all things considered... ]

[sixam]

Unsurprising. God didn't answer me when my mom died either. [ he just says this, but... there's a little smile. ]

He's allowed to be angry. I wouldn't tell anyone they shouldn't be. A lot of the people in Heaven were angry about the gods of their world, too. But I do appreciate you being reasonable all the same, thank you.

[refractures]

Of course he's allowed to be angry, but he shouldn't take it out on you when you had nothing to do with it. It's a little like other species claiming that humans are inferior, but they mimic a human's appearance, emotions, actions, and all that. So really, they're not any better.

[ She hums. ]

That's why greek mythology is one of my favorites to read about! They're just like people, you and I.

[sixam]

You think so? [ thinking about some of the people he's met who really are out here saying humans are inferior while wearing human skins. ] ... makes more sense to take it out on me when he can actually see me. But it's good insight, thanks. I... don't want to lose more connections just because of that, even if I'd get it.

I'm not as up to date on my myths, but they're really all human heroes for the gods, or the gods are people who were very human. Right?

[refractures]

You may be a god, but you're not the same one that wronged us. Being blamed for others' mistakes is just about the worst thing, isn't it?

[ She knows she'd hate that. Anyway, what does this food truck sell. ]

They're described as celestial beings, but most of them take form of humans. There's one named Aphrodite, the supposed goddess of love. She gets insanely jealous and punishes people who are prettier than her. A petty human can do that too, if not worse.

[sixam]

... yeah. Just about. [ and yet sometimes you just take the fall anyway for other reasons. we have wandered, and this food truck sells street tacos. tasty. ]

I feel like the difference between a petty human and a petty god is the amount of power they have behind their punishments. But I do think jealousy is an emotion that can impact just about anybody, human or divine or not. I can see your point though. It brings them more on the same level, relatable and understandable versus a god whose decisions are, like "shrouded in mystery" or whatever. I think I'd rather a god be upfront about stuff like that.

[refractures]

I think rather than "shrouded in mystery", the reason why a god is what they are is because they're incomprehensible to humans.

[ She tilts her head. ]

So every single action... we're not supposed to understand. Just accept it instead. Sure, we can question them, but we will never get an answer—or at least one that would satisfy us.

[sixam]

[ there's a slightly bitter, annoyed smile with that. ]

It's what they tell you in the church all the time, I think. You can't question God's timing, or the decisions made, you just need to know it's all in his plan. You can pray about it, but there's no promises. We aren't meant to understand, just believe.

[ it is probably increasingly obvious that jonas is a god that has beef with god in general still. ]

But blind faith isn't always the way. It's hard to blame anyone who wants to take matters into their own hands.