refractures | wenis / astolfo pc

[ If only he could meet other Servants to realize just how much of an outlier is ]

Do you want me to tell you?

[ All he has to do is ask, but they are happy he trusts them. ]

[ He already gets the sense that Astolfo is an outlier in so many ways and wonders if it's the moon curse at it again. How much of it is Astolfo's core personality and which is affected by the curse? Despite his curiosity, he still trusts them anyway. ]

Yeah. I hope you didn't expect me to say no~

[ He'll just have to see if there's moon cycles next time they meet up.

If there is a next time ]

It's because of your behavior and everything I've seen and the things I haven't seen yet. In the beginning, it was because you were a lot of fun.

It changed though! The more I got to see, the more I found myself just wanting to stick near. Maybe it's the way you tried to take care of others, regardless of the reasons. Maybe it's because of the moments where you were worried about me. You have all these cute expressions and funny face.

I just find the more I see of you, the more I wind up liking. Even earlier, when you're talking about your husband and the world you cherish, I found myself liking you more. You're very beautiful, Seo. Even the part that would be satisfied with your life if you wind up dying for real or the parts that are frustrating.

[ He looks partially wistful when Astolfo says all that. The other parts are surprised despite everything. He could say Astolfo has bad taste jokingly, but that doesn't seem appropriate right now. Seodore was so fixated on his own goals and desires that being told that he's beautiful or anything similar shocks him to the core.

Of course he doesn't show his emotions outwardly to that extent. ]

Liking something that frustrates you... sounds like quite a commitment, no?

[ Astolfo is different from Rumeld. They're different from Welt and yet, there's a warm feeling that turns bittersweet, because he doesn't allow himself to feel those things ever again. Not since he passed. ]

I really have never met anyone like you, Astolfo. Take that as a compliment. You're someone that I'll remember, no matter what happens to me.

[ There's a quiet laugh at his words. They already know there's no changing his mind or his path. There's no changing his heart at all, but that is also another thing that makes him beautiful and very human. ]

It helps you're cute and I like cute things. [ Their tone playful. They will lean up to press a kiss against his cheek. ]

You're someone I want to remember. You, Sieg, and the feelings I have here. I want to hold on to them even when it all gets wiped from me. [ Between their evaporation of sanity and getting summoned in the future... they want to hold on to this. ]

[ The cheek kiss is cute and there's a bit of color on his normally pale cheeks. It's really too bad that Seodore hates being recorded in any way, or they could have made vlogs together!!! What could have been!! He looks over at Astolfo and holds their other hand. Now they're holding both hands! ]

... Here.

[ He holds out one of the cigarettes from the pack that was brought from "home". ]

Whether your memories will be wiped or if this cigarette will disappear from existence, I want you to hold onto it until you can no longer remember.

[ As Seodore said before, these cigarettes are basically the embodiment of his existence. Perhaps exaggerated, but there's a sliver of truth in it at the very least. ]

[ It is so bad! They could have taken cute pictures together and Seo is looking good with that color on his cheeks. He can have both of their hands.

Though what he does next surprises them. The cigarettes which seem so important to him and were part of who he was. The same ones he seemed regretful smoking them when he didn't have access to the rest of them. Taking the one, and just going to smile warmly at it. Another something special to hold on to as the curl their fingers around it gently as to not crush it and bring it close to their chest. ]

I will! [ Maybe it'll be weaved into the story of Astolfo to be part of the trump cards they already have or maybe they will only be able to treasure it as long as they have this form. That would be fitting in it's own bittersweet way, but they are eternally optimistic. Maybe they can hold on to it even beyond then!

They will carefully put it in their pocket. Tomorrow, they can give him their tamagotchi for him to take care of, but today there isn't anything of equal value they could give. Lance would be dangerous and the horn is unfortunately linked to events.

The only thing they can offer is the very thing they gave from the start without any expectations or strings. Just their affection. ] Ah, I want to kiss you.

[ It surprises himself in what he's just done. He always wears gloves and avoids pictures to not leave any traces of himself behind. If Heroic Spirits are powerful by being known, Seodore is the opposite. And yet, he leaves a piece of himself with someone else. It's unheard of.

But he thinks Astolfo deserves it. That's how fond he is of them. Even if Astolfo will get their memories wiped and perhaps go through the same cycle of war again and again. The dead cannot rest and Seodore actually hates that. The dead should stay dead and the living should live with all their might. The thought makes him squeeze both hands for a moment until he's broken out of his thoughts with Astolfo saying that they want to kiss him.

... ]

Didn't you just...

[ It was a cheek kiss. You fool. ]

[ He gave a piece of himself to a Heroic Spirit that may keep it with them forever. If only they knew the full scope of what he did.

Shifting their hands to slide their fingers in-between each of Seodore's gloved ones as they shake their head. Astolfo is known as the one Servant that lacks any restraint or reason. That usually did what they wanted when they wanted to. When it came to Seodore who would always be so surprised anyone would want to stick by him without anything to gain but his company, they showed some restraint.

Their time is limited though. ]

Just take this as me doing what I want, Seo. [ Without expectations or hope attached. This is purely because they want to in the moment. Standing up on their tiptoes as they lean forward to press their lips against his. ]

[ He shouldn't be surprised, but he is. Perhaps it's because he didn't expect Astolfo to actually go for it.

Astolfo is always beyond reason and restraint. That's why Seodore understands what they do. Love, is also beyond reason and restraint. It takes many forms. All those unreasonable logical fallacies come for Seodore when he's kissed. Perhaps it's unsurprising that Seodore doesn't return it and merely stands there to eventually part them. ]

Truly... a one of a kind.

[ He doesn't say anything about the feelings involved, because he knows. Astolfo should too. If it's unsaid, perhaps there's nothing to accept nor reject. ]

[ There is no surprise on their features when he doesn't return it. They already knew that's how things would go, and went for it anyways.

They smile again as they part, not feeling any regret or embarrassment at all. ]

Yeah, that's me. The one and only Astolfo. [ They will give his hands a light tug before they start taking slow steps backwards. There won't be words said on the kiss or what feelings that may or may not be there.

Seo can let them walk into something like a moron if he wants, they'll keep walking backwards while pulling him along. ]

We still have time, Seo. Is there anything you'd like to ask while you have the chance?

[ Seo will not let Astolfo walk into things as he's being pulled, so he tries to gently and subtly guide them out of harm's way. He doesn't have anything profound to ask, or at least that's what he tells himself. All the questions could just be answered by Astolfo being Astolfo. ]

What's your favorite ice cream flavor?

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[ They'll let themselves be subtly guided past sequined benches and pink trash cans. ]

Are you going to get some? [ Are there any tubs of it in K-mart? ] I actually tried it for the first time before coming here! There was a berries flavor that was pretty good.

[ So they'll go with that until they try something better ] What about Seo?

[ apparently kmarts had their own cafes where they sold pizza, ice cream, etc idk if this applies here but Kmart has "everything" so I'm assuming it has ice cream ]

Yeah? I wonder what kind of berry it was. What kind of red was the ice cream?

[ Not like Seo's eye kind of red, right? Hopefully. ]

It would be perfect if apple ice cream could be sold in these places, buuut it's a really rare flavor! Something about it not working well for freezer storage. I think I can settle for vanilla.

[ let's go with yes then! ]

Yeah! I think it was a purple pink?

[ Not his r255 eyes! They will slow their gait again as they look around to figure out where K-mart is ]

If it doesn't have it, we could always make something with apples to go on top of it, right? There's all of those appliances in there.

Sounds like blueberries.

[ Seo continues to follow Astolfo. Are they still walking backwards? ]

Haha, if it's that, I'd rather just eat those apples themselves~

[ Yes! It's the only way they can keep holding both hands. So onward to the direction they think it is! ]

Could be! [ Maybe they'll try all the flavors to be sure. Or get a brain freeze trying... ]

Where could you find apple ice cream in your world?

Hm, maybe in a specialized ice scream store? It's not a common flavor, so they would have it, depending on how much of it is in demand. I could just look it up online, but if it's so far away, I wouldn't want to fly a plane just for that. I'm not made of money~

I'm satisfied with regular apples. The red honeycrisp brand was pretty good when I was in America~

I was in Romania just before coming here! I wonder if there's any shops that carries it near there. If there isn't, then I'll keep an eye for some on my travels.

[ They will try to remember to actually look for specialized ice cream stores.

Nearly walking past the K-mart entrance. They are actually going to let go of one of his hands to hold just the one and actually walk forward like a normalish person. ]

Besides apples, what else do you like? Do you like sweets?

[ Astolfo trying so hard to be a normal person... It's more comfortable for Seo too. ]

Sweets are fine, but I don't like them to the extent of having a sweet tooth. Pies are pretty good too~

[ He should have let Astolfo crash into something. ]

What about bitter things or spicy food? [ Wait! ] Oh! You said something about making a meat pie before. Do you like meat pies?

[ Leading him to the grocery side of the store. ]

[ He's trying to be nice!! He's about to answer the thing about bitter and spicy food, but then Astolfo moves onto the meat pie topic. ]

I wouldn't say it's my favorite, but I know someone who likes it a lot! I baked one for his birthday~

[ It's sweet! Just like it's sweet he's letting Astolfo just go on and on like this. ]

They must mean a lot to you if you baked for his birthday. Was it the kid you helped raised or one of your coworkers? [ They do slow a bit as they try to figure out where ice cream could be.

Then they'll turn towards where all the cold food stuff is. Time to walk past all the kid cuisines ]

[ It sure is... Seo would rather Astolfo go on about things rather than talking about himself too much anyway. But stuff like this is something he doesn't mind. ]

It was the kid. We all had a present for him~ because we like him soooo much.

[ Meanwhile, they want to hear more about Seo. This does seem like a better topic for him, so they'll run with it for a bit. ]

You said he was all kinds of good, right? Tell me more about him. Do you have any funny stories?

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