[ listen... he can't explain the crossdressing but doing all that in stilettos might earn some respect. ]
I talked to him after the show and it sounds a lot like what I went through in the toy scenario. After all, all it takes for murder is the belief that you're correct, even if it's just for a moment.
In that scenario, we were all taking care of children who wanted an extremely limited edition toy. Chihiro wanted to make his kid happy no matter what, even though he was by himself. Welt wanted the same for his four children and wife. And I...
[ There's some sort of bitterness. ]
... had to raise seven children, so I wanted to get the toys to scalp them on the market. And to me, at that time, it was the most important thing that I do--not for the sake of the kids I had, but from the dying words of my dead husband.
[ Yeah!!! Seven children!!! He hated it so bad there. ]
We did. I think there were only around thirty of them and there was an extremely long line of people waiting to get into the store to buy them. Hell broke loose. People were killing each other, but we mostly worked together... until I betrayed them at the cash register and killed Welt for his toys for a wish that never existed.
My dead husband's wish was that I raise the kids well and I couldn't do that without an obscene amount of money, which I could achieve by price gouging the toys. I had eight and Welt's would have made them ten.
[ Apparently some of them are going for $2000 right now on ebay?? ]
... Obviously, that dying wish wasn't real. I only realized that when I delivered the blow.
[ Someone needs to hug him more. He's quiet for a moment.
Astolfo can understand the control aspect, but they are the more unreasonable and senseless servant out there. He doesn't usually hold on to feelings of regret or guilt.
Seo is different. It seems to weighing on him with what has happened here with whatever else that's been pressing on him. This is all way beyond him though. So he'll just keep on hugging him. Maybe it'll help lighten it a little or make him feel something different? ]
It's not irrational. You feel how you feel and it'll probably take a while to change that.
[ He definitely feels things right now. Some negative but none towards Astolfo. There's a lot of emotions swirling. ]
A while, huh... I usually don't feel like this either, but this was special. Being controlled like a puppet and killing someone that I didn't really want to...
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I talked to him after the show and it sounds a lot like what I went through in the toy scenario. After all, all it takes for murder is the belief that you're correct, even if it's just for a moment.
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Ah. This place really is unfair. [ puffing out a breath at that. ]
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[ He can think of several ways, but he's curious on Astolfo's perspective. ]
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[ Entertainment will always be entertainment. ]
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[ He goes a bit quiet at that. ]
And no, I also didn't ask and helped with recovery.
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[ He's biased and not ashamed to admit it ]
Is it still rough to talk about?
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[ Since no one can now, apparently. ]
In that scenario, we were all taking care of children who wanted an extremely limited edition toy. Chihiro wanted to make his kid happy no matter what, even though he was by himself. Welt wanted the same for his four children and wife. And I...
[ There's some sort of bitterness. ]
... had to raise seven children, so I wanted to get the toys to scalp them on the market. And to me, at that time, it was the most important thing that I do--not for the sake of the kids I had, but from the dying words of my dead husband.
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Also seven? Children??? Even if Astolfo is originally from a time where that wasn't unheard of, it still feels like so much! ]
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So you all fought over them.
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We did. I think there were only around thirty of them and there was an extremely long line of people waiting to get into the store to buy them. Hell broke loose. People were killing each other, but we mostly worked together... until I betrayed them at the cash register and killed Welt for his toys for a wish that never existed.
[ Basically, Black Friday. ]
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That sounds scarier than any war I've been in...
[ Time to give his arm a pat. Seo has seen some things and done some things. ]
What was the wish?
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My dead husband's wish was that I raise the kids well and I couldn't do that without an obscene amount of money, which I could achieve by price gouging the toys. I had eight and Welt's would have made them ten.
[ Apparently some of them are going for $2000 right now on ebay?? ]
... Obviously, that dying wish wasn't real. I only realized that when I delivered the blow.
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You know it wasn't you, right? Just like it wasn't Majima. [ Or Goromi ]
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But it was me. I was certainly influenced by it, and that's what made me angry about it. It's just...
[ He sighs. ]
It's irrational. It doesn't make sense. Sometimes I wish I could just erase my feelings. It would make everything so much easier.
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Astolfo can understand the control aspect, but they are the more unreasonable and senseless servant out there. He doesn't usually hold on to feelings of regret or guilt.
Seo is different. It seems to weighing on him with what has happened here with whatever else that's been pressing on him. This is all way beyond him though. So he'll just keep on hugging him. Maybe it'll help lighten it a little or make him feel something different? ]
It's not irrational. You feel how you feel and it'll probably take a while to change that.
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A while, huh... I usually don't feel like this either, but this was special. Being controlled like a puppet and killing someone that I didn't really want to...
[ Ughhh
He just rests his head on Astolfo's arm. ]
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That's a terrible way to experience new things. ]
With time or putting your energy some where else.
[ Where could he even put his energy since there isn't much to do around here? ]
Until then, you can borrow me whenever just like this.
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[ He laughs a little, feeling a bit sheepish. He's not good with this sort of physical contact, but he's not uncomfortable. ]
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[ He's teasing. If it hasn't been obvious from however many times he manhandled him, he likes being physical. ]
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As long as however you'd like to be here, I guess~...
[ But Astolfo's presence is the most comfortable he feels so far, even though Seo is being Seo. ]
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[ He's good to stick here for a long time until they need to sit down or something eventually. ]
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